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*an update on my one love: [link]

** a hilarious photo from a business in my city: [link]

*** My new tea set and found treasures plus some amazing news!: [link]

**** all with photos!!!

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A new Page for my Dollz: [link]
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This post (on my home site) is about my wonderful experience of standing in the "eye" of the hurricane - [link]

So it was a rather uneventful weekend overall, even the threat of the hurricane that was supposed to hit us. It did, the eye passed directly over my city, my house even, I know, I stood in it and marveled at its incredible beauty...

I hadn't come back here and updated about my nasty day surgery on Tuesday so if you're really concerned - [link] and I made a grand post filled with images of my city which I really think you'll like, so here - [link]

Otherwise, I'm just trying to get by...

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I'm tired still, and really just mentally drained. I'm hungry like you couldn't believe and I'm dreaming of getting this disease under control, crohn's should not be a death sentence but the damn doctors have left it for so long that who knows where its going?

They've nearly killed my insides by "observing" and finally now, after this last diagnostic - they realize that the mess I'm in is entirely their fault. The inflammation has gotten to a point where regular treatments are completely non responsive - they say that now, I'll need TNF blockers to live and that means either Remicade or Humira...

But whatever, I'm going to try to do the best I can not to let it destroy whatever is left of me, my mind included...

I'm going to do an overhaul on my site soon, the galleries are pissing me off as they stand. I also need to find a much better way to showcase my graphics and I need to get my brushes back for my CS3 and my PSPX2 - I lost most everything in my format last week...

And thats that.

Right now - I'm going to start another pot of Folgers, make a pile of bacon and sweet potato home fries and just kick back for a while. I never get the chance to just sit on the couch and be lazy. Today - both kids are away (Bee is in school and Weemale is with his Grands) and me? I just wanna laze a bit...

Ta-ra! Stay shiny <3

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*Info & Full Update here: [link]

Today I'm having a deficit of creativity. I can't even blog right - thank the Gods that my site readers are understanding, also - I "lifeblog" and as we all know - sometimes - life is crap.

I'm slated for a reaming this coming Tuesday. They need to shove cameras up my ass and scrape my guts out onto little slides for later inspection. Its a full day surgery procedure so I'm going in, getting knocked the hell out, being shoved out of bed into a hard wheelchair afterwards and then shipped out in a smelly taxi, headed for home and Kylearyn's loving ministrations. He's coming with me and waiting for the procedure to finish, he knows how much it bothers me plus I'm not allowed to leave without a chaperone - they worry about the anesthesia and possible late reactions. Weemale will be with the Grands, Gods bless their dear hearts, and Bee is old enough to understand and take special care.

That should be an interesting evening. The anesthesia makes me horribly depressed, almost suicidal, so I'm glad that I won't be alone. The experience itself leaves me feeling violated and hollow. I should be able to muster up some kind of artistic expression over that mess, for sure...

Why do I write/paint/create better when I feel as though my whole world has crashed around my feet? I know that "tortured artist" thing is bunk, but... *sighs deeply*

Oh well... Oh bla dee, oh bla daaa...

When you take prednisone for a prolonged period, your adrenal glands stop making cortisol. After you stop taking prednisone, your adrenal glands need time to resume their normal function. If you abruptly stop taking the drug or taper off too quickly, you will develop symptoms of prednisone withdrawal — also known as cortisol deficiency.

Such symptoms include:

- Severe fatigue
- Headaches
- Lightheadedness when standing (low blood pressure)
- Nausea or vomiting
- Body aches

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I’m pretty messed up just now. I didn’t get the rx refilled yesterday when I was supposed to and I won’t have it until this evening. That list - its no lie. I f***ed up and now I’m paying the consequences, hardcore. Totally my own fault. I was the @$$**** who forgot to get that s**t when I was at the pharmacy yesterday and I promise mommy, I’ll never do it again. So yeah, I haven’t got a whole lot to say just now, only - *sob* I gotta get those f***ing pills…

*Note: Kylearyn is bringing me the refilled rx at 6PM - it is currently 5:22PM.

"One pill makes you larger
And one pill makes you small
And the ones that mother gives you
Don't do anything at all"
- Jefferson Airplane